Tuesday, September 20, 2011
Until very recently (today, in fact), I did not understand this word at all. I have heard it numerous times in NA meetings and throughout my sponsorship family in NA. So, naturally, I associated the term with NA. In a way, after discovering the truth of the word, I can still associate it with NA. Complacency, as quoted from http://dictionary.reference.com/, is "A feeling of quiet pleasure or security, often while unaware of some potential danger, defect, or the like." I understand now how that relates to recovery. I have noticed times in the past where I have been complacent. I often think that I have a handle on things now, I haven't used for 3 months. I can miss a few meetings, or go "check-up" on old using buddies, because I can handle it. That is a lie. I am an addict. I will never be able to handle myself, much less the temptation of being around illicit drugs. I must remember to stay rooted in a program, stay abstinent, and stay humble. Complacency is cunning, just as addiction is a cunning enemy of life. Today, I will avoid being complacent to the best of my ability, and I will not use.